Anxiety is weird

On the one hand, I'm perfectly fine right now. I'm safe in my home, my family is here, I have food and water. I even have a bomb shelter equipped with some food, a first aid kit, and a battery-powered radio that can also charge phones.

On the other hand, we're fighting a war on six fronts (seven? I've lost count), it's violent and horrible and it's only getting worse. We're losing allies. We're going to lose sovereignty, and then what?

I'm thankful to be Canadian, at least I have somewhere to go.

What's actually stopping me from getting on a plane right now?

• Budget? Well, that's something that we can take care of
• The kids have camp? So what, they can leave
• Yossi has work? He can work from anywhere
• I have a beautiful new home that I'm putting so much effort into? Shame
• Lavi has tonsil surgery booked? We can do that in Canada. Also physio and everything else.

I really need some hope and optimism right now.